He fills up my heart...

I'm back!

2011-09-07T22:50:00.002+08:00

yay! After so long, i'm finally back to blogging! hehehe! Many things happened within these 3 months but still, i've never forgotten my dearest blog! :D Haiz..many things have changed im only writing because i need to pour everything out and it seems to be that this is the only place to do so. Why do you have to be jealous over SS? I thought you liked A...so stop complaining and making people miserable like me! You make others think that i'm really despo when we were together and that's really mean! Whattheshit! Stop trying to change to become somebody popular cos you never were..but no matter how much you talked bad about me i dunno why but i don't seem to really care. I dunno if i still like you, but even if i do, i won't express it out because i dun want to get hurt over you. I made that choice to end it, so i won't mend this relationship anymore. But i really hope we can still be friends and not be so narrow minded as to talk bad things behimd my back. If you this post, i'll be quite happy cos you still remembered about my blog, but if you don't it's okay cos i''ve never intended to say all these to you.

Decision

2011-06-24T20:26:00.002+08:00

One of my friends invited me to her church. Her church's quite big..but i forget the name already hahaha! I dont know if i should go..it feels awkward. It's like 'betraying' my church and going to another one, quite 'stuck'?? I mean it should be okay if it's just an event or something but it's not really the case cos she's been asking me to go and attend her service but i always reject her cos i dun feel good. This time, i felt a bit interested cos quite a number of my friends are going to her church and she asked me if i want to, i said i would consider but i don't know whether to go or not..it's tough and i'm really struggling inside. Then i wondered to myself, why do they want to go to her church but when i asked them to attend my church's service they don't seem that enthu about it, or even rejected me. What's the reason behind it? I don't know..i thought about it and the reason i could think of is because my church's a community church and her church are those big churches where they only focus just to bring people to know God. But my church not only does that but also help the people who comes to our church in their financial and welfare of their family. That's the most important point i guess. hehehe!:D

10th ANNIVERSARY!

2011-06-18T23:09:00.002+08:00

heheheh! it was AWESOME today! It was a great success!!:D We managed to perform the dances to the 170++ people!! I'm really very HAPPY! Whoohoo!! Wow..10 years..time really FLIES. I wonder what i'll be doing after the next 10 years?? Maybe a youth leader leading the next batch of young and wilful kids like us?? HAHAHA! maybe..or playing the drum and being in the worship team? That is if i can really learn and know the true meaning of worship. I think i still have a long way to go learning about true worship. Yeah..shall read up more and really experience it. Oh yeah todday's anniversary was really fun and also..AWESOME! I really enjoyed myself and i think the adults and the children did too. I believe that God was present with us just now and i believe that the fellowship that we had may really bring in more people to know God. I, too want my family to accept Christ and know God. I really want to, seeing them laughing and enjoying themselves just now really touches me. How i wish they could just say that they want to accept Christ right away!! Hehehe!:D I know it's a bit impossible lah, but i know with time they'll see the change in me and my sis. She really improved a lot, she knows how to control herself and she really tries hard to maintain her composure so WELL DONE SIS!!:D My goal for the next 10 years should be upgrading myself and increase my bible knowledge and guide the next batch of genj that's coming up. Hmm..should be josiah's batch bah?? Hehehe! Sounds really fun and interesting!! But i believe God has made plans for me and I'll follow His plans accordingly because i know He knows what's best for me!!:D AWESOME ANNIVERSARY!! Looking forward to the next anniversary: PEC 20TH ANNIVERSARY!! WHOOHOO!:D
P.s. Timothy is really a very pretty guy!! I'm super envious of his eyes!! AHHHH!!

100th post

2011-06-12T21:57:00.002+08:00

Yeah past is past..no point dwelling on it. I'm just thankful for the friends that i have arnd me..supporting and encouraging me all the way. This time, i guess i'll just have to take a risk. I don't know the result of it but at least i know my own heart. I'm just going to follow my heart. Even if the outcome isn't what im expecting but at least i know that i've tried my best!:D And i've put in the effort to do it. Hmm..jiayous!! hehehe! this is my 100th post btw..hope it brings me a little LUCK!:D

New beginning

2011-06-09T23:37:00.002+08:00

Why am i in promisedland? This question seems to puzzle me a lot. Ytd wasn't really a good day i guess? Prayer meeting had an awkward atmosphere, it seemed so..empty. Yeah, me and the others felt it. It wasn't what it used to be..couldn't find an explanation to this. Had some thoughts going through my head as my youth leader asked us some questions. Why am i in promisedland? Why not other churches? I really couildn't give him an answer straight, i was hesitating just what kind of answer should i give or what is the right answer? Yeah, since young im already in promisedland but is that the answer to the question why i'm in promisedland? I thought about it and figured most of it and came to a conclusion that maybe the real reason i'm at promisedland would be what one of them said, God put me here. And the reason for God putting me here..to preach the gospel and to make disciples. That's what the Bible says and what i should be doing. Many things had happened this few weeks and made me think quite a bit..i was too sensitive. Being sensitive was alright but over sensitive could really make me think otherwise or even feel unhappy over certain things. I guess i need to stop being over sensitive and look forward to the future. That's the right path that i need to take. To those i've hurt, I'm sorry. I didn't really think about how you felt but now, i guess i'll be happy and carefree..no more thinking or feeling!:D

This sucks

2011-05-31T22:12:00.002+08:00

Thought everything was fine but in the end it was really tiring. I thought it was a pleasant and joyful thing to serve GOD but in the end i felt nothing like that. Maybe we're lazy but i've put in my utmost effort what else do they want? Yes, it's the 1oth anniversary it means a lot and i know it's really important. But i thought all these were to be judged by God and not ourselves. We don't really judge the quality of it because we've said it already that what we're doing are all for God. But why is it so tough and tiring? I don't get it, i don't get it at all. Why is it only the girls getting the scolding and not the guys? And why are the guys always venting their anger on us, and blaming us for ruining the reputation of the group? All our fault? Nobody else's fault? I dun get it or rather i dun understand what they're thinking. Seriously, i dun think the guys should even vent their anger on us..we're on the same boat..not like we're a level below them or what but we're of equal status..get it right BOYS! This isn't in the 80s or 90s whereby boys are more capable or something. They can't give birth that's something that they DEFINTELY can't achieve. Stupid person, his character sucks man..think he's big is it? Just scold scold and vent all his frustrations on me. Hello..go to someone else to vent your anger on if not i'll treat you like a punching bag the next time i see you! Seriously something's wrong with your attitude or mindset. Girls are not weaklings alright..seriously..

A wrong start

2011-04-27T17:41:00.002+08:00

Maybe you're right, we're weak you guys are strong. I don't want to be strong neither do i want to be weak. I just want to be myself. All these pretentious stuffs are irritating and disgusting. I feel disgusted, i feel ashamed. Not because of just my actions but the way i present myself to you, the way you respond to it. I can't be the perfect person that you're looking for, i am just the way i am. If you can't accept it, the off i go. There's no point staying any longer. I thought of that before but i thought things would change gradually but no, nothing's changed. I didn't change. I know i don't do things well, efficient like you guys did in the past. Well, that just proves to you guys that we're not as the same standard you guys had. You guys were efficient, strong and united but consider the fact that maybe the generation after you guys has many other problems that you guys didn't face. I'm not pushing blame but i just want to voice out the difficulties that we face. You guys bonded well because you guys spent much more time than we did. We want to be bonded like you guys but honestly how can we be as bonded as you guys when we ourselves have so much to handle? Honestly speaking it's not the girls' fault. We wanted to fit in so much but take the performance as an eg. They merely asked us to be back-up dancers without considering whether we want it or not. To them, we're just supposed to take orders from them. Then what for bonding tgr when i know that they treat us just like dogs? I can't stand the sight of them looking down and i can't stand their snobbish attitude. So what if we're girls, doesn't mean that we can't dance right? Don't think you know how to dance very well and just give us that stupid look, wipe it off and i'll show you what we girls can do! Just you wait, one day someone would do that back to you!

Never ending

2011-04-14T21:34:00.002+08:00

Life's short yeah but it's never ending. Troubles never ending, worries never ending, sadness never ending but happiness seemed to be short lived. I dont know why but it seem that way to me. It seems like happiness is really rare though everyone says that they're happy and stuff but i dont. Maybe i'm too senstitive. Things are just stressful and they seem to be a burden to me. Nothing seems to be relaxing and comfortable. Pobably because of the stress that im experiencing now, or maybe my academic results? Stress, worries and burden seems to be over-taking me. i dont feel happy or relaxed. Be it physically or mentally, i'm drained out! Completely no energy to fight on, no strength to continue this gruelsome battle. Maybe my mental strength is really that weak..

Let down.

2011-04-01T23:18:00.002+08:00

Everyone seems to be improving it seems like im the only one still lagging behind or still not ready to move on. I thought as the eldest among the girls i should be the one improving the most and yet i myself did not instead the other 2 younger ones were the ones who were improving and preparing themselves for the journey.I dunno if im ready yet, because i seem so far away from the rest. I cannot see improvement myself and i dun think i deserve to serve in the ministry. Sometimes i think that even jos is better than me. I think she deserves every right to humiliate me and even laugh at me. I dun even deserve to stand out there, holding the microphone and sing to God. Because i know that God would not want to listen because my lips and my hands are unclean and i'm not using a pure heart to worship Him. I don't want to be left behind, but i dunno what to do. Everything seems so far, and i can't reach for them, it all appears to be getting further and further away from me. what should i do? I seems to be losing everything. Everything that i do, seems to be wrong, everything that i do seems to be unpleasing. Everything that i do, doesn't please others' eyes. It seems like the things i do or even say is wrong. And i'll be pointed and scolded for it. I can't seem to bear the stress and everything now. I want to let go..let go of everything. I want it off my chest, off my mind. Stop the prorities stop the scolding stop everything. I want to Stop.

失恋

2011-03-14T21:50:00.002+08:00

我学会了怎么勇敢地面对事情。失恋并不是一件非常悲惨的事情反而它能够让我变得更坚强，更勇敢。以前的我只会默默地在一旁哭，真的很蠢。现在的我已经不一样了，我已经长大了。谁说失恋就一定得哭，谁说失恋会令人觉得悲惨感到悲伤。对，我们都会，但是哭完了之后，失恋还是失恋啊。失恋并不会因为我们的悲伤而消失，它也不会因为你的不舍而恢复你和另外一伴的感情。失恋虽然痛苦，但是哭完之后，我们应该振作起来而不是一直痛哭流涕，一直想着那已不可能的感情。虽然痛苦，虽然难过，但是日子总得同样过着。时间不会因为你而停下来，世界也不会因为你而停止转动。失恋只是人生中的一格小小的挫折，我们应该勇敢地面对而不是逃避。也许你会感到有些困难，但是只要勇敢地面对一切所有的事情就会有解决的办法。

Admit it?

2011-03-06T15:42:00.002+08:00

Sometimes i feel constraint, i feel loss, i feel insecure. Because i dunno how you feel, i dunno what or how to make you feel better or less angry. I'm always guessing, not always feeling secured. You said you can give me that security and i'll always be safe with you. But, i realised it isn't this case anymore. We're drifting further and further apart. I dunno what to do, neither can i do anything to make this better because in the first place, i dun even understand you. I dun even know you well enough. Maybe it's time to stop and slow down to think carefully abt this relationship. Is it going to be a tough one or should we just end this well and be normal friends? It's tough i know, but i dun know what to do. Sometimes i'm afraid of the wrong decisions that i make that caused the awkwardness among us, i feel useless, i feel loss. Tell me, what should i do? Forget abt it, or to face it bravely and admit to him that there's really something wrong abt this relationship and try to change or solve the problem. I'm scared, i'm afraid but i believe by facing it bravely, things will change for the better, let's hope so.

Terrible..

2011-01-31T13:40:00.002+08:00

It's really super scary..it was the most terrifying nightmare that i've ever had. Sometimes i would just wake up in cold sweat just thinking about it. But through this event, i've learnt something really important. Friendship, is something that i've experienced through this incident. My friends were willing to go door to door to look for the inhaler for me, willing to do their best to keep me awake and did their best to keep me alive. I owe my life to them. They're really my best friends and i'm really lucky to have these friends. I can never thank them enough but i know they're relieved to hear that i'm well and fine now. I've realised that friends are really those who help you when you're in difficult times and i''m really grateful to them. I'm really sorry too, because i've scared some of you off. Sorry, but still, really grateful towards you guys. You guys are really my best friends and buddies. Without you guys, i really dunno what to do. So, thank you!:D

Christmas! 2010!

2010-12-25T18:42:00.002+08:00

2010 Chirstmas is here! Today marks the day when lots of children receives lots and lots of presents but other than that, what else does Christmas means to me? Christmas in the past means fun and excitement that i'll have that day. I anticipate the night of christmas because that's the only time that i'll receive presents from my parents. Until this year, Christmas means something else to me. To some, they know about the birth of a special person and so do i. This special person is Jesus. He was borned on this day to carry out his task. His task was to die for all our sins. He sacrificed himself for us, for the sins that we've done not Him. He died on the cross to save us. Jesus is the true meaning of christmas not receiving presents and having santa clause. Because of Jesus, we're saved and not dead. Because of Him, we celebrate Christmas. I want to celebrate this year's christmas with Jesus. I want to fill my heart with His love and joy. I want to spread His love and joy to my friends and family to let them know that Christmas is all about His birth and sacrifice. Not about presents and santa clause.

Time flies..

2010-12-08T22:25:00.002+08:00

I dun like the feeling of being left out. I dread it..A LOT! But, somehow or rather, i'm always feeling that way. Hmm..why? Asked myself this question TONS of times but each time, i can't give myself a satisfactory answer. I'm being too naive to really think that everyone are nice to me, caring towards me when some dun even bother abt me. Hahaha! That's really hilarious. Friends, in my opinion, doesn't care abt materialistic stuffs and social background. They just friend who you really are, and not what your status is or whether you're rich. I guess friends like this are hard to find. But, i believe that my friends are true to me. Some only, for those whom i dun think of that way, sorry then i guess you're not really my true friend. Same goes for the FAITH that i put in God. God doesn't mind if you're rich or well-known for something. He still bless us for who we are. We're the children of God and we should be proud of that. God is a powerful God and a Caring God. He bless us and protects us everyday. Then how can we love Him back like how He loves us? By spreading His love to others? I'm sure i'll come to know of it someday.

Me, myself..?

2010-12-07T20:12:00.003+08:00

I dunno what's happening to me these few months..i've been aimlessly wondering about, yet to settle down. Not just that, i've been back-slidding wothout me noticing. What, after all these months i'm actually back-slidding? I didn't realise the consequences of it until last sun when my youth ldr discussed it during the cell group. Back-slidding isn't something good, it means that i'm actually moving further and further away from God. Which is not good! It may be the doing of the devil or maybe also the faith that i have in God. Maybe i dun have that much faith as my other church members, maybe the trust in God is fading away without me realising it. Is it me or the devil's taking me away from God? I dun have that desire, that anticipation for God. I admit that i've changed, i took things for granted. I took blessings that God gave me for granted. I was able to get into the main team because He answered my prayer which i took for granted. I didn't thank Him for that. I dun wish to keep any distance away from God anymore. I want to be the closest to Him. But, can i? It takes actions than just words to make this come true. I need much more faith to take this BIG step forward. I know i can, but i dunno how to. But, i believe that God has the answer to it and so i'll leave it all to Him to decide for me. I've dedicated my everything to Him, my life, my friends, my family. Because i know, He's a Great God.

Jonghyun

2010-11-10T22:32:00.004+08:00

I know being a celebrity means keeping a good reputation but celebrities are also human beings. They have feelings and we can't deny them the right to be in a relationship with anyone. Jonghyun, a member of shinee, cried in front of his fans, apologising for his relationship. What has the world become to? Why can't his fans understand his feelings and give him and his girlfriend their blessings? Must things come to the worst scenario whereby Jonghyun is absent for events? That's totally ridiculous and i think it's super LAME! We should respect him and not discriminate him when he was found having a relationship. Are we his parents, his close relatives? NO! So, we can't object to his relationship and he has the right to date with someone. Put ourselves in his shoes and try to think in his angle then comment about this relationship. If we would feel bad being treated this way, then why should we torture someone whom we idolised?

206

2010-10-29T23:47:00.003+08:00

It's been a long long time since i've posted! Exams were terrible and my results sucked even more! Anw it's holidays now, thinking of programmes to do to spend these 2 months. I'm tired after this year, dunno why, physically and mentally. Could be due to my weak body and maybe the hurt caused by people...turns out that i'm not strong enough to face my emotions, causing it to affect my studies? Whatthe...? Didn't know that i wasn't able to handle it well enough just hope that i can be stronger from now on. My dear friends, dun fight or quarrel with each other because friendship is more important than anything else. Sometimes, i'm really at a loss when 2 of my friends are quarrelling cos i won't know who to side with. There are bound to be challenges in ur life especially things or relationships that are important to you. Cos GOD wants to test you, to see if we could actually overcome obstacles that are set up in our lives. I believe that with determination, nothing is impossible to achieve or accomplish. Let's work hard next year, as sec3s, heheheh many adventures await us! 206, My dear class, i'll always love you! Because you watched me and my classmates grew from immature kids to mature young teenagers. I'll miss the funny and naughty guys in 206, understanding and polite girls in 206 and the lively atmosphere in 206! I'll nvr forget this awesome class because it created many wonderful teens and i believe everyone in 206 would be able to shine and excel in the future so JIAYOUS!:D Love you guys to the MAXXXX!!!

No boundaries

2010-09-08T17:19:00.003+08:00

There are no boundaries in life. There are only boundaries in life if you set them up yourself. You're always wondering why others are stronger or much better than you, but have you ever wondered how you can be better than them at other areas? We tend to despise ourselves and look up to the others. But, do you realise that we can also be as strong as them or even better than them? Everyone lacks confidence in ourselves and tend to believe that we're useless in front of those who're better than us. We're not useless but we just haven't discover our own strong points and talents. Everyone has a talent. Talent is something that we have to discover and develop. I've yet to dicover my talent but i believe that one day, i'll discover it by chance all we need is time. Be patient, and you'll discover it someday.

Regrets...

2010-08-30T20:57:00.004+08:00

You're not the only one with regrets...you regretted your choice to be with me but did you ever thought of the very first reason why you wanted to be with me? You've forgotten abt it right? This shows that the relationship that we had was not important to you at all. You didn't even put it as ur first priority, then why bother carrying it on? Come to think of it, i thought you were the one, but i was too naive. I just wanted it to be simple yet everlasting, is that too much to ask for? Now that we've parted our ways, you claim that i was being despo liking another guy after our relationship, then wad abt you? Don't you like someone too? Aren't you being biased or prejudiced against me? Please stop, and think of the consequences. The misery that you've caused to people can never be erased. Because it'll leave a scar there, constantly reminding us the hurt that you've caused. Thanks to you, i have sleepless nights. Thanks to you, i've come to realise ur true character. I felt regretful abt the broke up but now...it doesn't mean a thing to me anymore because you've never took this relationship seriously.

Friends

2010-08-26T21:51:00.003+08:00

Friends are always there when you need them. They are always there when you're happy, when you're sad and even when you're angry. They are there to support you and encourage you. Friends are there to help you when you're helpless, friends are there to make you happy when you're sad, friends are there to encourage you to get up on your feet when you fall. They are the best people in the world that you're gonna have sometimes even closer to your family. It doesn't matter as long as there's someone there to lend you a shoulder to cry on, making funny faces to make you laugh and inspiring words to encourage you, that's enough. I don't ask for more but just to spend time with my dear friends because they're so important to me. Friends give you something which can't be given by other people and that is love. Many people would say that their boyf or girlf can give them that but trust me, friends give you a more 'loving' love than ur partner can give. Because friends are special and they're the ones that you'll need them when you're sad or happy. Because i need them now...

Common tests!

2010-08-19T18:36:00.003+08:00

Everybody must be all tensed up now right? Cos it's a crucial time again...COMMON TESTS! Argh...everybody must be ranting now hahahaha but what can we do? We're still students so our job is just to study and nothing else. HAHAHA:D being influenced by my mum too much but what she said really made sense, what can we really do when we're still students? Work? Love? I know friends around me are having bgr hahahah i know it's uncontrollable, i totally understand it. But do we know hw to balance it well with our sch work? Is it manageable? To some of us, yes but to the rest, maybe no? No offence, but just some views that i have on relationship hahahaha i admit that sometimes it's really out of control when you love someone so much hahahah i can really understand how it feels. Anw, just wanna wish everybody good luck for upcoming exams and revise well!:D

Confession

2010-08-07T22:49:00.003+08:00

I have a confession to make. I have something to say. I want to tell you something important, so listen well. The alphabet 'I' is so powerful, sometimes it may be very hurtful, sometimes it can be real sweet. I really have a confession to make. And that is I really love him. This time round i'm not kidding or playing around. Instead, this is the first time, i'm feeling so serious abt a relationship. I know he still have feelings for another girl but i know i can wait for him because there's a strong feeling that's inside my heart yearning for him to turn back and say 'I love you'to me. I've realised that love is a very BIG word. People just say that so often to each other but do they really know what's the real meaning behind it? I don't really know the meaning but at least i know how it feels like to love someone with all your heart, mind and soul. Because i've been loving GOD. He created us, human beings, so wonderfully and beautifully but what have we been repaying HIM with? Destruction, more crimes, mistakes? Human errs, but do all of us repent? I think people say the word 'sorry' for the sake of saying not really apologising for what they've done. We just take things for granted, not cherishing the things we have now, when we lose them, then we start to regret. Does it applies to all of us?

I realised that you were still as important to me

2010-08-05T21:54:00.003+08:00

I tried forgetting you, but i just can't. Could you tell me what to do? How can i forget you? I made myself to fall in love with another guy, but it didn't worked out at all. You're so mean, how could you do this to me? Why did you make me fall into ur trap? Now, i can't seem to get out becos of you. You're just a nobody, why am i so deeply in love with you? I dun get it but my heart just feels that way. Or is it that my heart is malfunctioning? Or is it that my mind just can't seem to get you out of it? Tell me, because i have to forget you to be able to go back to the old me, happy and joyful. I'm tired already, let me go will you?

Beside me, or away from me?

2010-07-24T12:11:00.003+08:00

Will you be there when i need you? Will you be there to lend me your shoulder to lean on? Will you be there when i'm down to comfort me? Will you be there to share my joy? The answer to all the questions would be a no. I know it'll never be a yes, cos you still have feelings for her. I can only stand at a distance looking at you, hoping that you'll walk to me one day saying'I love you.' I hope that day would come real soon. Whether you're happy or sad, i'll be there when you need me. But for now, i'll be your good friend and i'll keep this love buried deep down in my heart. I'll safeguard this love, because it's so precious to me, i'll never lose it. Never ever...because i love you.

Visitation!

2010-07-22T21:00:00.003+08:00

It was AWESOME tonight although i didn't really open my mouth and really enquire but overall it was quite a pleasant one better than wad i've expected. I thought we would be getting lots of rejections but then tonight's visitation was a successful one! I promised myself that the next visitation that i'm participating, i will do the talking although i'm a bit timid hahaha:D but i know someone would always be walking in front of me the next'visitation and that's LORD!:D AMEN! Tonight was something that i've never tried before so it's actually quite memorable! Life time experience! Okiie dokiie! I'm off now ppl goodnights!(:

HAHAHAHA:D

2010-07-16T23:08:00.002+08:00

OHMYGOODNESS!!! This is my first time listening to 赞美之泉 singing live! AHHHH!!! This is like super, duper fantastic right? HAHAHA:D enjoyed myself tonight A LOT! Mind you, it's A LOT! Couldn't express the feelings i had but i just immersed myself in that kind of happy, relaxed atmosphere. This is just WONDERFUL! HAHAHA:D sry if i've used too much capslock but it's simply HEAVENLY! You can get to enjoy that kind of energy, spirit, enthusiasm that they have! They were just simply AMAZING! Thanks to them, i got to understand another way of worshipping the LORD, not only that but also how to express myself through prayers and worships. I've learnt a lot through their sharing and worship. I think GENJ2 should really learn from them and change our way of worshipping the LORD. Our FATHER, our ALMIGHTY GOD, deserves the praise, worship from us, so we should give our all to HIM. Let's change, GENJ2, we'll change for the better, we'll improve, we'll never look back again. I believe that with determination and courage, we can soar! And we will!:D

Fun ttm!!!!!

2010-07-11T21:43:00.002+08:00

Today was fun during swimming! Auntie huixian and family, Auntie Yahni and family plus SHAWN, FRED, MANFRED, JUSTIN going for swimming! HAHAHAHA:D It was awesome! We should go again some other time. Too bad today had swimming lessons if not we could go play with them! HAHAHA:D Anw swam 2 laps of freestyle, 2 laps of breaststroke and then went to the shallow pool for some backstrokes. HAHA it was hilarious cos some ppl swam further and further away from the coach and nearly banged their heads against the walls. HAHAHA...but it was fun luh and tiring too...ofc.
ARGH!!! tmr's geog test, not really ready for it...haiz...have to score well and improve so that i'll be able to continue to go for service! YAY!:D anw REALLY A BIG THANK YOU to sister JUNE! She's so kind as to help me get a bible knowing that my mum dun allow me to buy one, so THANK YOU! Really appreciate what she's doing for me! Dunno how to repay her, maybe by studying hard and getting good results may help? HAHAHAH:D Glory to the LORD!

Amazing song!

2010-07-09T23:29:00.002+08:00

Amazing song! Beautiful song! I'm so in love with it! HAHAHA:D it's celine dion's 'Because you loved me'! Ohmygod! It's so DAMN nice, especially when i heard it from this taiwanese competition，超级星光大道.It's really super duper nice! Everyone should go listen to it, i'm addicted to it already! Not only are the lyrics meaningful, the melody is superb too! It gives you a warm and calm feeling. I highly recommend you guys to go listen to this song!
Had Art class today and my hands were super 'colourful'! HAHA:D stupid Guanlin and Shanyou keep on pressing the paint until there's a hole in the red coloured and yellow coloured tube. ARGH! HAHA:D but nevertheless, it was FUN! Having 2 jokers sitting beside me, although it's kinda irritating but they were quite fun to talk to and joke arnd. HAHA:D
I'm here trying to salvage this relationship, and you're there trying to give this up. Why can't you salvage it tgr with me? You'll never know whether you'll succeed until you tried it out. Why can't you try it out? Are you afraid? Are you trying to avoid this? Please don't, i'm doing all i can to avoid all these awkwardness. It's time for you to get out of your comfort zone and try to solve all these awkwardness. It's not that difficult, you just have to try. Do it for your own sake, you wouldn't want us to just keep quiet for the rest of the 5 months right?

Take a look at me, just this once

2010-07-06T21:50:00.003+08:00

Take a look at me, will you? Everyday, i just wished that you would just look at me, even if it's just a glance, i'll be satisfied. I know that we're not gonna be as friendly likehow we used to be, but at least smile at me, let me know that you still consider me as ur friend. We were once brothers and sisters, then became couples then now...strangers? Can we go back to how we used to chat, laugh and gossip abt others? I've alr taken a big step forward, now it's time for you to take that step. I know it's not that easy but at least you try. Many people failed, but at least they tried, in the end they still succeeded. Somethings are not meant to be for you, so dun force it. Somethings are alr destined to be yours, so accept it. I believe that my future's in my hands and i'll choose the right path to take. I'll bear the full responsibility no matter wad happens in the future. Because it was my own decision, my own choice. I've never regretted it. I've never regretted accepting CHRIST, because i know that it was alr arranged by the LORD that i know GENJ 2, so i accepted it. It was alr arranged by the LORD that i came to Promisedland, so i accepted it. All these things are alr arranged in my life by the LORD so i should accept it and make the good use of it. Accepting CHRIST, made me understand LORD deeper, knowing things that i didn't know in the past. I'm happy because i've found my second HOME, and that is PROMISEDLAND. Whenever i'm down or happy, i would share the burden, share the Joy tgr with the youths in Promisedland, it eventually became my second HOME, where i truly belonged. I feel a strong sense of belonging in Promisedland. That's where i'll GROW and SHINE.

It's over, i know it is.

2010-07-02T22:22:00.002+08:00

I'm not wrong, wad i've said in the previous post were all true. I meant wad i said, even if u called me a f***ing bitch, i won't care abt it anymore. I can only say that your hatred hasn't faded off, you still need time. That's all, i'll forget you, i'll not bother you again, maybe that's the kind of ending you want. I was abt to say that i felt happy today cos you walked near towards me today on your own accord, nobody pushing you or wad so ever. But, somehow i was wrong. Just by walking near me, i felt so happy. Whatthehell was i even thinking? I thought too much, i thought that you were taking a step nearer to me, but instead, you stabbed me in the heart. I can only say that i've hurt you too deeply, nothing can be done to ease the pain in your heart. Nothing i say will allow you to change ur thinking. Hope you'll find a much better girl than me.

Why go to the extremes?

2010-06-30T21:24:00.002+08:00

Why do you want to go to such extremes? We can still be friend right? Isn't that a bit too over? I dun wan our teacher to know abt this, can't we just settle it ourselves? Everytime when i see you, you just give me the 'you broke my heart' face and what's that for? I'm not gonna stupidly wait for you to turn back and look for me. I'm gonna walk straight, never ever stopping again becos of you. I'll be happier than you, trust me. I'm not gonna let myself shed a tear becos of you, NEVER. Cos i know that you're not gonna be with me anymore and i'll still continue this journey without you. Although we can't be tgr, friends are still possible. I really want to make friends with the 39 classmates. I dun wan any awkwardness btw any of us. This is our last year as a class, let's be truthful to each other. Voice out ur thoughts or feelings toward each other, we'll be the most united class!:D
Yes!!! Got back maths test today and can you believe it? I actually got 20/30! That's incredible!:D First time in sec sch scoring such a high score hahaha in particular for maths. That's a big boost in my confidence level! Omg! I dun think i'll be able to sleep tonight and today's training was a disaster! A complete DISASTER! We ran 72 rounds altogether! Omg, that's so CRAZY! Not mentioning that we actually sprinted like 2 rounds each and continued jogging! It was so tiring! But in the end, we managed to finish it up! Great job guys!:D

What is my altar???

2010-06-27T21:18:00.004+08:00

Today, went for service and the youth group leaders told us about the altar that we were singing today? What is each and everyone's view about the altar of GOD? Is it made of stone? Is itsurrounded with fire? One of the youth leaders shared that her altar of GOD was actually herself that she sacrificed. She sacrificed herself and bring herself before GOD. She told us that the sacrifices that we make is our study. Our responsibility as students, is to study. The only thing that we can offer to GOD is our studies. We get good results and that's considered an offer, a sacrifice from us to GOD. GenJ 2 will just march on and on, we'll never look back again. Let's march on tgr with GENJ 1 and the adults. We'll fight the battle tgr, i believe that we're ready! COs we have the most powerful weapon with us, The Almighty GOD! Let's GO, PROMISEDLAND EVANGELICAL CHURCH!!!:D

First Discipleship Class!

2010-06-25T23:13:00.002+08:00

Today, i had the first discipleship class in my life!!! It was meaningful and we could speak about our own views on the topic. Today's topic was seeing life from God's view. Well, the part that left me the geatest impression was when Andy Bro talked about having love, obedience, integrity, loyalty and FAITH. Faith, to me, i think that it's about having the confidence in something that you've done. Something that i've done was to accept CHRIST and i did have faith in that!:D That's wad i think about the word FAITH. Maybe somebody else may have a different opinion or view about this word, but to me, having faith in yourself, having confidence about in your work is something good! We should keep that thought in our mind because having FAITH in GOD, means that we're actually having FAITH in ourselves this way, we're actually improving, which is POSITIVE!!!(:

Sometimes things just can't be salvaged

2010-06-24T19:48:00.002+08:00

Although we can't be couples we can? I really hope that we can still be friends like how we used to be, chatting and laughing carefreely tgr not bothered abt wad the others are saying.
Maybe i'm wrong. maybe i'm right about it??? I really dunno wad is it this time. I dunno whether wad i'm feeling right now is possible. Maybe not, i'll just pretend i didn't felt that strong feeling before. I know it's impossible so i'll just forget abt it. I'll just longed to see that person everyday, i dunno why. I'll be worried when he has troubles or if he's feeling moody. I'll try everything i can to make him happy. He makes me feel that i'm the most important person to him. But i know, i'll never be. I'll just stand by his side and gives him advice, be a good listener and help to solve his problems!!!:D I guess that's enough because i dun wan any awkwardness btw us, i just want to maintain it that way. It's good enough.(:

Why him? Of all people...

2010-06-23T16:56:00.005+08:00

Why you? Why can't i just forget about you? Tell me, wad should i do to forget you? Please tell me, tell me directly in my face that you hate me, you detest me, you are irritated by me. Maybe i'll just fade away...Tell me these, please i beg you. It's torturing me...everyday when i signed into MSN, i would always hope to see you online. But each time i signed in, my heart would just sink...cos you''re not online. Please dun ignore me, i know you're trying to forget me. I saw everything on facebook. Please dun post those hurtful phrases, each time i see them, my tears would just roll out of my eyes uncontrollably. You took my heart away on 24/2, but threw it back to me in pieces on 18/5. Why??? I know i was the one who initiated it, cos ur heart wasn't with me anymore. You didn't bother to explain to me, so i just gave up. Do you know how terrible it was for me? I'm always the one being dumped, but this time round, i initiated it. I had nightmares every night after we parted, that was so scary. I'm sorry, but could you at least draw the line clearly btw you and ur 'sis'? You were so imortant to me, i felt threatened, that's why i did that. I thought i would be happier, but i was wrong. I thought of how loving we used to be, you would walked me to the mrt station, we would msg each other during class, we would look at each other secretly during lessons, isn't that wonderful? I really want to go back to how we used to be...can we?

Today's service!

2010-06-19T23:14:00.005+08:00

Just came back from today's service! Anw...HAPPY BIRTHDAY PEC!!! Today's the 9th anniversary and i'm so happy to be able to join PEC in this year's anniversary celebration. From today's sharing, i've learnt about the past of PEC, how it grew from a small area for sunday service to now, a bigger area for service. This shows that with the help of GOD, nothing is impossible. It's only whether you make the effort to build a relationship with GOD. I'm gonna do that, i'm gonna BUILD a relationship with GOD. HAHAHA:D Although i've just accepted Christ, but i'll try and build a relationship with GOD, so that i grow not only in the knowledge of GOD, but also grow in terms of worshipping and praising GOD. My aim for this year end is to build a close relationship with GOD so that i'm able to understand GOD better and also to outreach to my other friends who still don't really know abt GOD and to bring in more GENJ members.

God, you filled up my heart

2010-06-16T21:43:00.003+08:00

GOD, through today's prayer meeting, i understood you better, i came to know you deeper. I know how powerful, how mighty you are. GOD, i just sincerely wants you to melt my mum's heart, allow her to be able to see te goodness in you, GOD. She still doesn't know you well GOD, and i know she wants to, in her heart. By letting me attending sunday service shows that she's able to take that big step forward to believe in you, GOD. She needs you,GOD and i know that she's tired both physically and mentally.GOD, I just need you to take away her discomforts and make her feel comfortable when at home, or during office hours and that she still wears a smile wherever she goes. She's a filial daughter and i know that cos she's always calling back home to my grandma asking how;s her health and life. I'm sure she's a great mother and also a great daughter. GOD, please make her believe in you and allow her to share her burden with me, my family. I dun wan to see her working so hard, GOD please, this simple request GOD.

It makes sense

2010-06-15T18:27:00.003+08:00

Whoo! I'm one of the programmers for this year's camp shakers, isn't that AWESOME?!!!!!!! HAHAHA:D im so SUPER DUPER HAPPY lor...i'm speechless hahaha. Anw the youth leaders talked to us abt GOD. Whether GOD is always revolving arnd us, or we're just chrisitians when we're attending service on sundays during 9am-11am. I think members of GENJ 2 will portray themselves to be someone that's responsible of carrying out the orders that are instructed by GOD. And i think, GENJ 2 will do a great job. I think we need time to understand GOD better in the sense that we really go deeper into understanding GOD and also reading and analysing the bible. I believe that the bible is one of the ways that we can communicate with GOD. But after all that i've said, do we really communicate with GOD all the time? When we're down, when we're facing difficulties, when we're struggling, do we? Do we talk abt GOD when we're chatting, having discussions? Not only during sunday service, but i think everyday we must at least make an effort to communicate with GOD be it something happy, something saddening, i believe GOD will sit down there to listen to you, GOD wouldn't turn away and leave us alone, he'll help us. HE WILL, cos GOD is great all the time!:D

终于说出口

2010-06-14T22:50:00.004+08:00

I can finally go for sunday service, isn' it something to be happy abt? To me, of course but another matter has brought my mood down once again. Doesn't mean that im msging guys, talking to guys i like them. I'm just doing something normal, dun be so paranoid, mum. i know you'e over protective of me, but i know where are my limits so let me have my freedom, kay? let me take control of my own life, i'll do things that are sensible. Just give me ur trust,i won't let u down. Just like wad that person had said, i'm being locked in the cage. I have not much friends to talk to, not much social life, cos you've taken it away from me. Just wad must i make you to believe me that i can control my own life? I can manage my life well, i won't make silly mistakes? These 14 years it was always you, and it all revolves arnd you, no me, but only yourself. You claim that all the things that you're doing for me are for my own good, but somethings i need to make a decision for myself and i relly wan to take control over my life. I'm not saying you can't discipline me, but most inportantly, trust me. Please, I'll show you one day that i can manage my life well and I WILL!

Please let it be true

2010-06-11T23:27:00.004+08:00

Please let it be true! Please let my little wish be true(: just this little wish, simple request. I really wan to go for sunday service. I really wan to own a bible, which is really mine. Please let this be true, let this little wish be fulfiled. Just this once, please. Seeing other ppl taking out their own bibles, reading them, makes me feel envious of them. Why can't this happen to me? Why? I have to think of a way to persuade my mum, no matter wad it takes, i'll persuade her. I must and i'm sure i'll succeed with the perseverence that i have. Nothing is going to stop me when it comes to believing GOD. Because GOD is great all the time. And i believe that! I'll keep on praying and praying till my mum agrees ans i'm sure she'll understand why i'm doing this. Not just for my own good, but also to set a good example to my other siblings. To be an obedient and filial daughter, to be the best daughter in the whole world. To assure them that i'll be alright on my own, to allow them to put their trust in me. i want them to feel proud when they think of me, when other ppl talk abt me, when they see me standing on the stage receiving my certificate when i graduate. I'll do it, i'll succeed with the help of GOD. I'm sure GOD has arranged everything for me and i'll follow it because i know, GOD is great all the time.

My heart will always beat for you

2010-06-10T21:49:00.002+08:00

Yeah, you were right. 为什么人总是失去了某样东西才会去珍惜它？I'm sorry that i had caused you so much misery after the break up, i'm sorry for hurting ur feelings once again, i'm sorry for mistaking you and her. I'm really sorry, but i know no matter how many ''I'm sorry'' i say, you'll nvr be able to forgive me. I just wan you to know that we can still be friends although we can't be a couple. I'm sure, we'll be great friends as we have many common interests. Sometimes, friendships are even more valuable than relationship, that's wad i've learnt from this relationship. Seeing you and her so close although you two were just bro and sis, made me jealous and angry. I know you two were just caring and encouraging each other, but sometimes, ppl just misundeerstood ur intentions as ur actions were too intimtate, acting more than just bro and sis. I'm sorry if you're still feeling upset over it but get yourself up tgr, maybe another girl may be out there still waiting for you, but i wan you to know that my heart will continue to beat for you. Every hour, every minute, every second...
我的心永远只为你跳动，永远都不会停止爱着你。。。
我爱你。

Heartening yet touching

2010-06-09T19:06:00.004+08:00

I had a mixed of feelings today hahaha:D im happy, touched and also grateful at the same time. Why happy? There's this great leader who had read my recent entry and told me abt it today. He said he wanted to read to the other youths, at that moment i felt extremely happy. Not becos he said that he was going to read it out to the other youths but rather, i was glad that somebody actually read my blog and understood my feelings! Somehow, i felt closer GENJ 2 now. Why touched? I was shocked during the camp when i heard that JOSIAH(a cute little toddler) died before and was revived! The person who had revived this baby was JESUS. That was during the church camp when we were having some sharing. It was just unbelievable when i've heard it. Now, everytime when i see the toddler, i would be very touched. He's a super active boy now and he's just too hyper, can't keep him down. HAHA:D I was too emotional today and nearly teared when i saw how cute he was and how nice he can be to the youths. He deserve a good life and i'm sure that there must be a reason that he was revived by JESUS. He's going to be a great man someday. Why grateful? This person told me today that he had been praying for me to come to church for the past few days i was GRATEFUL to him. THANKS ******! Dun mention ur name here hahahaha:D just in case(: really thank you! AND TO THE OTHER GENJ MEMBERS, THANK YOU! ESPECIALLY, FREDRICK who had asked the other GENJ members to pray for me thanks!(: Really appreciate that!
That's all! And one last thing, i saw his wallet today. I saw the picture inside his wallet. I was touched. He wants to go JC. I can see his determination and his hardworking character. He deserve something better than this. He's able to withstand the obstacles in his life, staying strong no matter what happens. JESUS, GENJ, UR FAMILY will always be behind you. Jiayous(: you can do it.

Back from Church camp

2010-06-07T22:18:00.002+08:00

FUN TTMZXZXZXZX!!! Just came back from chrch camp held at genting this year, it was so fun! I'll definitely go again next year hahahaha(: This church camp is not only fun but it also led me to understand Jesus better. I was touched and also happy when we were singing and praising Jesus. AMEN!!! HAHAHA:D through this camp i'd really wanted to let my heart out to Jesus but then the thought of my mum disagreeing to it...just brings my mood down. Well, i really want to be part of GENJ 2 really! It seems so fun and also awesome to be a part of them. but sadly to say, i dunno whether i'll be as good as them, or maybe even half as good as them. Time really flies, 6 years in Promisedland hahahah:D im old too! but really, it was my pleasure to be able to know so many great leaders and friends and also many caring Aunties hahaha AUNTIE YIMEI is the most wacky auntie i've ever met hahahah it was NICE meeting her.
I really hope that one day ill stand up that singing and praising the LORD, saying the prayers leading a new batch of GENJ members. And doing backup singing, it looks so fun! HAHAHA:D
AMEN. I'll pray to let my mum agree to let me attend the church and be a part of THE BIG FAMILY!

Time to let go

2010-06-02T16:04:00.003+08:00

Sometimes when you tend to let go of things, it may be better. Not a bad choice either. Good to know that i have many good friends and buddies arnd me, if it weren't for them, i think im still rotting away, idling, thinking of useless stuffs. Somebody once taught me to widen my vision instead of only looking at things arnd you. Things otside your vision maybe better, more nteresting than the ones you've seen right now. Maybe that person's right, i should have widen my vision and not only be sad for this thing that's only in my vision, in th future, there'll be better things and sceneries that i want to see and witness. There are a thousand more trees out there, why do i get so upset over this, one tree. She's right, my mum's right, there're plenty of guys out there, it's just that i haven't met the right one yet. I shouldn't get too upset over him and he shouldn't be too upset over me either. We're just not suitable for each other and maybe in the future we'll meet other suitable partners in life. Now, what's more important is our studies. Getting As for all my subj seems so IMPOSSIBLE but Impossible is nothing, nothing is impossible. It is up to us to make it achievable or not. It all lies within ourselves.
Hey Huiping dear, so you must jiayous kay, nothing in this world is impossible. You just have to make it possible. You know you can do it and so do i. So let's work hard tgr for EOY. Let's prove it to them that we can be smart and score As not only the other 38 of them(:

2010-05-26T09:25:00.002+08:00

srsly can u just fck off! im damn pissed! sry bloggy, the person is realy pissing me off! can u just shut ur mouth and just behave properly?! fcking god! freak show! wad is ur god damn prob! zzzz...sry for that just srsly PISSED off!

It's meaningless

2010-05-25T20:35:00.002+08:00

It's meaningless to go on anymore...quarrels, disputes, arguments, discrimination are all i can see these days why??? I'm really blessed to have such great friends and seniors to support me i'm really glad. THANKS:D It's really touching to see how you encouraged me to cheer up and also get back on my feet. I will and i can, just give me time and i'll stand before you again. I'll be the old me, being humourous, funny and JIAO hahahaha:D but it's awesome to be back to my old self, no more pretending to be happy, overall i'm HAPPY! Thks guys, you all are the BESTEST Friends i've ever had, without u guys i think i'll ROT AND DECOMPOSE like some shit! HAHA(:

To that person: I really wished that i didn't meet you, had you as my friend, thought you would be standing on my side but nvr thought you would just leave me and join him. wad kind of friend are you? Srsly, can't stand ur attitude alr, it srsly just pisses me off! but still i won't say that in ur face, im not HUM just dun wan to hurt you, since u can't take the BLOW! That's all...i've got nth to say to you

never to believe you again...

2010-05-21T23:19:00.004+08:00

i'll be strong even without you, i'll slowly get used to not having you by my side...i promised myself to get back on my feet, i'll not cry over you again, they were right, you're just not worth it. i would just be wasting my tears crying over a pathetic guy like you...you ain't worth it. Be with her, all you like cos im not gonna care anymore im just gonna be ur normal classmate, nth else but just ur friend. Cos i know...you ain't coming back to me, cos ur sis's more important than me. Maybe im wrong, maybe im right, it's up to you. You can just deny it, deny everything i won't care but dun try to hurt any of my friends anymore. Im deeply hurt by you and i dun wan my other friends to be hurt as well. if you mean well, i'll not interfere, but if you dun, i'll just say it in ur face"scram off!" Go with her, she's ur 'sis' but it doesn't seem that way, not only me but many ppl are suspicious over it, this shows that im not overly-sensitive. Dun use my studies as an excuse, cos i know how to deal with it. It doesn't mean that i'll die becos i've lost you, but in fact, i'll live a better life than you do and of course win you in all the subjects this year end. Wait and see...

To you: i hope he'll be a good 'bro' to you, all the best to the two of you, saying it in advance. Losing ur loved ones in life, dun have to be sad for so long, live a better life than they do and do well in ur life, they'll feel proud. Dun let a little setback push you down onto the floor and stop you from getting up. Get yourslef up tgr and face it bravely, guys aren't the only loved ones we have, we also have great friends and of course ur 'bro'. Dun be so emo...and look at things differently in life. You'll feel happier this way and not brooding over what's been done, you can't change the fact anymore.

It's not the end, but a new beginning

2010-05-19T21:50:00.002+08:00

Hey folks! sry to make my friends arnd me so worried abt me but, i'm alright kay things are getting better for me. I'll be strong like what i've promised you all, it's not the end, but just a new beginning. I'll strive hard and work hard for the rest of the year:D I'll concentrate during trainings so that i can get into the B'div this year hope so!!! Although things weren't that smooth-sailing but i've learnt to become a stronger person and also to face the problem bravely instead of runnign from it. Life has its ups and downs, that's what many of my friends told me and...I LOVE ALL OF YOU!!!
I wan to thank the following ppl:
-NHNB C'DIV'10!!!
-Girls from 206'10!!!
-Clara/Kentley/Chia Chih/Marvin
hehehehe and many many more thks and i'm really grateful to all of you(: i'll be happy from now onwards!!! YAY!(:

Just this once

2010-05-09T20:52:00.004+08:00

Can i just be smart, agile, courageous for once? I'm not jealous of ppl but rather envious to see them always smiling and playing happily but only me, having to work super duper hard and wad do i get in the end? A FAIL in my history test...i couldn't blame it on the paper for being so tough but rather blaming myself for not preparing well enough for the test. Although many ppl failed this time round's test, a handful did quite well and why is this so? they're smart? they're hardworking? i dunno, but i know that i did not put in enough effort for this test,i took it for granted...this is just my retribution.

can i trust you again? i dun wish to end off our friendship...it happened 1 year ago and i dun wan history to repeat itself again. I'm believing you just this once, please dun disappoint me. I really believe that you're just a ___ to him so please maintain it that way. Dun cross the line, i hope we're still good friends. We cnt and we must ot fall out over a guy.

maybe it is my destiny to meet you, to fall in love with you, to go through a lot of things tgr with you. I hope things will not just end here, i hope it'll go on forever and ever till we die...I love you, i mean it.

I'm back!

2010-05-06T19:01:00.002+08:00

hey peeps! I'm back again maybe posting more often cos i've lots to tell and vent well, sry bloggy, not in a good mood recently. Today was NAPFA and apparently, as i've expected, i did badly. Everthing was just screwed up...just gave up. I couldn't go on anymore, suddenly got asthma attack cos last night suddenly attack also thought this morning everything would be okay but it did not. Haiz...i should just died ytd night, it's terrible to go through the attack again. It's painful, but no one can understand me. It's just frightening as it can happen anytime at anywhere and without my inhaler, i'm just gonna DIE!! That's a fact. So, i'm like a hald-dead, half-alive human being. I;m not trying to scare you, but it's really a fact. I have to be real careful about my diet and my health. If i'm gonna fall sick now, i'll be in for a terrible time! what is 'even though you're very successful but one tiny mistake can cause a downfall in your own career'? I think it's somehow or rather important for us to think about it and figure it out.

My 50th post

2010-05-05T18:25:00.004+08:00

YIPPEE! this is my 50th post(: hahaha anw sry for being kinda emo the last post, suddenly wanted to pour everything out and just tell someone abt it and therefore i told my bloggy:D today is going to be another emo...post i know i shouldn't be emo....like how my friends told me but just can't help it maybe that's mood-swing?? hahaha:D

well well well, my life is just gonna be bored without someone and that person means everything to me, at the start, i thought i was just despo...but now i realised that i've really fallen for him and the feeling is hard to describe it out. I feel jealous when he's talking to a girl, teaching somebody else but not me, rather sit alone than to sit with me. i dun wan that anymore, to be honest, i didn't feel anything for him at first but now...he's everything to me. the very first time i felt that i was deeply in love with this guy, the first time that i would cry over this guy, very first time i said"i love you" to a guy wholeheartedly...i knew that he's the one but he just seems further and further away nowadays. why did things turn out this way?? does he still loves me wholeheartedly? if yes, why is he drifting further and further away? i can't sense his love for me, i can't feel it anymore, is it gone? is everything gonna be over?? please dun...i wan this to go on forever, as long as i'm still alive, i wan to love him wholeheartedly and cherish him. just this simple request, nothing else...is it that difficult?

I love you, Gordon, i really do...please stay with me and be there when i need you the most

YIPPEE

2010-04-23T17:38:00.003+08:00

sry peepo, long time didn't post didn't really had time was busy playing the season and busy preparing for tests! anw we ended the season well, by defeating NANYANG, 40-25 one word: SHUANG! but we didn't managed to get top4 we'll do our best and next year, we'll get that medal! top4 here we come!:D well, i'm kinda stressed up by the tests and things...blah blah cant rly cope well with my relationship but luckily my boyf is understanding enough to put up my nonsense thks dear(: well i guess that's all i'll post again next time peepo tata:D
posted by:emotionless-gal-Joey:D

2010-04-14T09:15:00.001+08:00

having ICT now...so boring...didn't bother to listen much anyway today's an important match must win!!!(: jiayous c'div'10 nanhuanetball will make history jiayous!!!

We will never give up

2010-03-24T21:12:00.002+08:00

hey girls! let's work hard during these two weeks to brush up on our skills and fitness okay(: dun let today's game affect you in anyway cos we still have 2 more games before deciding whether we'll go to the next round so DUN GIVE UP!!! we must have the fighting spirit in ourselves so that it keeps reminding us of our goals and that is nationals TOP 4!!! SO WE MUST JIAYOUS AND NOT LET THE SCH AND COACHES DOWN!!! we've been training so hard just becos of this year's competition so we must fight really hard till we collapse. we want to make hisory: C'DIV 2010 NATIONALS TOP 4!!! okay so we must work towards the goal and not forgetting to thank the teachers and coaches that have been guiding us along. THANK YOU(: NANHUA C'DIV 2010 WILL GET INTO NATIONALS TOP 4!!!

why can't adults understand us?

2010-03-22T18:22:00.002+08:00

sry but i just have to rant in my blog and i hate doing this but why am i doing this? all becos of my mum...parents just doesn't seem to understand wad we chidren or rather teenagers want, all they say is go and study but did they ask us wad we rly anted besides studying??? NO rite? i guess many of you face the same problem as me...it sucks totally!!! my mum just doessn't seem to know why my grades are falling mainly becos of the pressure that she's giving me i rly hope she would read my blog and find out wad happens in my daily life and most importantly how i feel and wad i want besides studying. many times she would just ask me wad i want for my birthday or even other occasions...well this is my ans:i want to be able to study hard WITHOUT any pressure given and of course play HARDER as that's my passion. she can't stop me as im not young anymore, net=ither am i rebellious i just want to have more freedom rather than being cooped up in a cage where she's the only one who has the key that is able to release me. i HATE that feeling and i rly hope that i wouldn't feel this way anymore...anw thank god i have someone whom i can share the burden with and thank you(: i guess in the first place i shouldn't be born into this complicated and unreasonable world...

It's okay it's alright

2010-03-10T17:42:00.007+08:00

hey girls cheer up kay? although we aren't the champions in west zone but we still have a chance to play in the nationals so get up on ur feets and prove them wrong! we'll train with our might and fight through the tough matches all the way!!! jiayous we can do it! just believe in ourselves(:
wadeva the result or outcome is, just know that the 12 of us are gonna stay tgr and share weal and woe, we're not gonna leave each other in the lurch but encourage one another to keep fighting on cos we know that we're the best! and we'll always be the best!
the never say die spirit will always be with us and i know that we're not gonna give up till the final second of the game, coach and the teachers are there to give us support and we must give our best to repay them back(: we're beaten twice, but that doesn't matter, wad matters now is how we're gonna create our future, rmbr our future is in our own hands we can choose to destroy it, or to make it into an exciting and glorious one...trust yourself and the team that we can and we'll make it into the nationals top4!!! Jiayous NHNB C'div 10(:
posted by:confident-gal-Joey(:

This was wad we've been training for

2010-03-08T18:38:00.004+08:00

tmr will be the deciding match btw nanyang and nanhua, vying for the first and second positions in the zonals...(: i really hope we can win tmr's match and make ourselves as well as the sch proud...no pressure just make sure tmr there's lesser mistakes being made, more confidence and most importantly...play with ur HEART
everything seems so fast...i could hardly take a break to stop and take a look at the surroundings i just realised recently that my dad has more and more white hair, my mum seems to age a lot, my siblings starting to be more stubborn and insensible...things just happen too fast and i can hardly breathe
things happen way too fast and i wan to freeze time if i could and take a good look at the ppl and things arnd me, maybe i should just slow down and spend more time with my parents and family, take good care of them, becos I LOVE THEM(: and i love my friends too and of course i will always love HIM no matter wad happens...just know that...i'll always be there for u if u nid me(:saranghae
posted by:tired-gal-Joey(:

The One(:

2010-02-26T17:36:00.001+08:00

yay! congrats to our seniors first they beat nanyang haha(: well done seniors! Next, we beat west spring 39-12 haha(: but we can't be complacent we must do well for our next match against BP so must jiayous! And haha my luved one(: 24/02/2010, 17:12 i'll rmbr it always(: Love u always(:
posted by:Loved-gal-Joey(:

DETERMINATION

2010-02-09T21:33:00.002+08:00

QUICK POST!!!: matches were alrite except for today, against nanyang, although we've lost but we're gonna work hard in the second round to be able to go for nationals so NHNB jiayous!!! we can do it! we're not gonna give up, we're npt gonna slack we're gonna work hard and strive all the way! GO NHNB!!!(:
POSTED BY:determined-gal-joey(:

Homework VS Competition

2010-01-25T21:46:00.005+08:00

GOSH!!! it's so tiring and i didn't even know that...i have to cope both my studies and the competition at the same time which is not a very easy job or task AH!!!!!!!!! haha(: but thks to that person, he encouraged me and helped me in areas which i'm unsure of...i wanna tell him that he's of great help to me!!! I LOVE YOU!(: haha and of course the encouragement that my friends and family that they have given me has boosted my energy level upwards thks a lot!(: i really appreciate that and will work dounly hard(: that's all folks tata(:
posted by:tired-gal-Joey(:
(stupid face haha(: ) (being retarded...)

(being tgr...is one of the happiest things)

My BIRTHDAY!!!

2010-01-11T21:18:00.002+08:00

Gosh! 2010's here and soon i'm turning 14!! Yay(: i hope to celebrate it with my friends and LOVED one!!! Aiya that looks so impossible to celebrate with him lor...always say see first see first dunno see until when...so envious of my senior lor got bf to love and take care omg i'm so mad!!! haha(: didn't post for a really long time so pspspsps...haha(: will try to post more often that's all folks(:
posted by:mad-gal-joey(:

SUPER JUNIOR M & JJ LIN(:

2009-12-19T23:37:00.018+08:00

i dunno why but i find super junior m and jj lin so hot nowadays haha omg some pictures

posted by:smitten-gal-joey(:

CARNIVAL AT SCGS!!!(:

2009-12-11T19:08:00.003+08:00

OMG!!! NHNB C'DIV 2009 GOT CHAMPION!!! whoohoo!!! this is the best carnival i've ever had; being able to get the first is not that easy; all our hard work during training has really paid off(: one word to describe 'SHUANG'!!! HAHA(: we'll work hard and hope that we can get the first for zonals yay!!!(: GREAT WORK GIRLS!!!(:
POSTED BY: 'SHUANG'-GAL-JOEY(:

Trip to Hong Kong

2009-12-05T15:51:00.002+08:00

HALO!!!(: i'm back from my trip(: it was fun and tiring there at hong kong, besides disneyland, i still went to many places to play, shop and eat haha(:
first day went to disneyland and was quite fun, saw many disney characters and also took many pictures with them so fun!!!(:then had dinner at there too; sat many rides and i was terrified by one of the rides, space mountain, scary sia, it was like a roller coster but it's indoors. then when it was at night, my family and i went to watch the breath-taking fireworks and the lightings. they were all very nice. we were given a special 'glasses' that can turn the lights into heart-shaped figures and it's very magnificent haha(: my siblings had fun playing with it
second day went to ocean park, had to purchase bus tickets and entry tickets before taking a bus there. it was similar to disneyland but the rides in ocean park were more suitable for adults eg.abyss and many more. we had to take the cable car to the top of ocean park and i was afraid of heights so i didn't really enjoyed the scenary like my family did. my brother and i were afraid to ride these rides but my sis was eager to ride those and in the end she rode those rides herself brave hor haha(: we also went to watch dolphin shows and many aquariums. we took the cable car down and went to see pandas. but we managed to see one only as the exhibition was closing so the rest were resting in their own houses. went to a shopping centre to eat then went back to hotel.
third day, we went to tung cheng, where there's lot of shopping to do. my mum and i bought some clothings at ESPIRIT. then at night went to mong kok where it the 'women street' is located. it is a night market and the things sold there are cheap. i bought some keychains and a bag. my mum bargain with the aunties and got a cheap price.
third day we went to the peak where we had to take the peak tram up and it's cold there cos it's at the peak. once we reached there we saw 'Jacky Chan' haha(: it looks very real but it's actually a model. then we went into the museum which has a lot of movie stars' models eg.Jay Chow, Yao Ming, Ronaldino haha(: we sure had a lot of fun taking pics with those movie stars(:
fourth day we went to the GIANT BUDDHA. we needed to take a cable car again. i'm so not cool when we had to take it again and the ride is abt 20 mins long omg...my siblings were like wanting to take the cable car which the floor is transparent and i immediately wanted to faint then in the end we took the normal one with the opaque flooring. during the ride, we could see the figurine of the buddha from inside the cable car you can imagine how big the buddha is. we went uphill to see the buddha and realised that we had to climb up many flights of stairs omg then we came down after going up to take pics and went to view some exhibits
Pictures will be updated in the next post(:
Posted by: Funny-gal-joey(:

Training was tiring...

2009-11-24T14:43:00.004+08:00

ytd totally sucks...training was tiring and again i didn't focus well...kept missing balls, throwing badly anw it just sucks alright...how i wish i was half as good as my other teammates...they so pro, i so lousy; big difference btw me and my teammates; i pulled them down while they were trying to go up; i stood in their way when they were reaching the top; i just felt so useless
CAN'T I JUST FOCUS DURING TRAININGS??? WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME?! I'M JUST TOO WORRIED OVER EVERYTHING!!! WHAT CAN I DO??? AM I GOING CRAZY???
for the past trainings i just felt like giving up, thanks to my teammates, i didn't
life has a lot of difficulties that we ought to face; those who had encouraged me and those who had comforted me, i'd really want to say a big 'THANK YOU'!!!(:
posted by:pessimistic-gal-joey

Cry, cry and more crying...

2009-11-19T16:41:00.002+08:00

today went back to pri sch as it was the last day of sch for my p6 juniors they were all crying leh...then i kept on comforting them making my eyes teary...haha(: last year my batch also the same everybody just burst out in tears and we just hugged each other and kept on crying haha(: is it very funny? Haha(: maybe to some of you, but to me, i find it quite funny cos we're still gonna contact each other right, not like we're gonna die after graduating from pri sch and hello? it's only pri sch wad for cry....even though i still cried hehe(:
posted by:funny-gal-Joey(:

I felt so useless...

2009-11-18T17:37:00.002+08:00

today didn't know wad happened to me, something just went wrong, kept throwing 'off' balls, can't catch the ball properly, kept on being scolded by coach and was unfair to the defenders who fought so hard to fight the ball back but i just threw it away just becuse of my silly mistake...for the first time in my life i felt so useless, guilty and bad
i was so off form today and completely useless during matches today, maybe coach was right i didn't have the confidence in myself, i dunno why, but i am still afraid of the ball, i was afraid that i can't receive it and can't throw properly
i want to earn my play on court, i very much want to but; something's still stopping me from doing so, was it due to my lack of confidence or loss of concentration??? i very much want to focus throughout the whole training even during matches, i tried to but everytime i just can't, why? Is it because of something, somebody???
I'M SO SORRY RICIA, FRIDA, YUZHEN, NISHA, HEATHER, BERNICE, JASMINE, XINYI, JIANING, HUEYYAN...I've let you all down
i'm plain useless and kept on interfering the progress of you all, who tried so hard. Maybe i'm not fit to be a netballer even...
I won't give up neither will i lose concentration,
i'll concentrate and win the nationals top 4 tgr with all of you,
and that's my goal(:
Posted by:Useless-gal-Joey

Train hard!!!

2009-11-17T18:04:00.004+08:00

hey peepo! here to blog abt ytd's yog and training...(:
ytd was sweet(: yog did stretching then used the string to do some stuffs then here; my fav part dancing!!! Danced the Synergy dance and was quite cool as laoshi added some new moves to it!!!
Training was up next; didn't know wad happened but was looking forward to training haha(: wasn't tough ytd did active warm-up and ball handling; didn't know ball handling was changed and did drills in parade square for awhile then went to ISH cos it was having lightning alert then watched seniors played with SAJC, wow they were all damn pro! How i wish i was one of them....haiya...then cooled down and went to bus stop to take a bus home that's all!
Ps: SAJC is my cousin's sch and my cousin's damn hot!!!)
Posted by:happy-gal-Joey(:

Random Stuffs<3

2009-11-13T16:36:00.005+08:00

Yay! dad bought me a BIG Chip as my reward for getting 'good' results in my eoy, well wasn't that good but somehow there's improvement(:

actually today was suppose to go bowling with the team but it appears that the weather wasn't very good so cancelled; and also suppose to go library...well, today's dance rawks although there's some funny warm-up stuffs but i like the dancing part the most yippee(:

and...today i felt extremely relieved after sorting out some personal stuffs...i've nvr been so sure abt something in my whole life (except for my family haha(:) well it really makes my heart assured hehe(: well post some pics and tata(:

( CUTE!!!) (Me and CHIP!!!)

Posted by:happy daughter-Joey(:

Class Chalet!

2009-11-05T21:23:00.002+08:00

IT was totally a success!!! 106'09 had a wonderful time at aloha changi although it was quite spooky...hehehe(:in all, 106 has a great bonding during these 4 days tgr i believe we've bonded lots!!! ANW, today's training wasn't tough but full of scoldings...sianz...mainly because of me as i didn't pass the ball very well, couldn't do a better job in everything but! i promise the c'div'09 of NHNB that i'll work hard and work with all of you to NATIONALS TOP 4 NEXT YEAR YAY! haha(: touched right? lol...haha(: nth better to do...
Posted by: Determined girl(:

Counting down...

2009-10-31T12:36:00.003+08:00

i'm counting down the hours to class chalet...another 36 more hours it's gonna be the class chalet yippee!!! haha anw ytd training damn tough like some shit like that hate the downline cos have to run here run there asshole...it sucks manzxzx then went home and it was raining damn heavily but until jurong east it stopped the floor was damn dry lor crazy...haha i'm looking forward to tmr's chalet...<3

Today's the 4th day i didn't talk to him...posted by:funny-gal-Joey(:

Once upon a time...

2009-10-27T17:22:00.003+08:00

today i'll be posting a sad story that i've heard...it all happened to a girl who was carrying a torch for a guy and was deeply in love wiith him. That day, she wanted to tell that guy how much she loved him but didn't have the courage to do it therefore she approached her friend and asked what she could do? Her friend told her to be brave enough to confess her feelings to him if not she'll regret, in the end the girl did...The guy was not shocked to hear that from her and just answered her that he did not like her in a emotionless way, the girl was hurt, she felt miserable and regretted telling him abt her feelings for him. She cried for him day and night, feeling terrible inside her and had thought of committing suicide...all the crying made her body grew weaker day by day and eventually died because of exhaustion and the guy was unaware of wad she had been through just because of him...posted by:joey

Bro's birthday!!!

2009-10-24T22:12:00.005+08:00

HAPPY 9TH BIRTHDAY GERALD! <3
hehe today was my bro's birthday and i wish him all the best for his coming SA2 examinations, hope he score well with flying colours...jiayous(: around 11 plus meet yz, frida, ricia and clara at west mall as they were going to have their second piercing...ouch! i didn't even have my first one and they keep asking me to go, haha cos i scared pain mah but when they pierce like nth happen like that they were like oh okay done....wth not pain meh??? i scared like hell lor haha after that board the mrt and clara alighted at clementi as her father was fetching her to guitar lesson then the rest of us made our way to plaza singapura; watched My sister's keeper, damn touching hehe all of us cried cos it's damn touching can...omg then after that leeminho's arrival then frida was like omg faster go i wan to see him...siao zha bo lah haha then squeeze into the stupid crowd damn squeezy lor asshole then me ricia and yz went to another shop and shopped then frida say that leeminho change venue then they rush like some crazy ppl haha but i got to rush home cos my bro's birthday mah...that's all the rest let the pictures do the talking!!!(:

posted by: funny-gal-joey(:

Exam Results!!!

2009-10-23T23:01:00.002+08:00

GOSH I SCREWED UP MY EXAMS!!!
Eng: 65/110- didn't fail, thank god!
Chi: 136.5/200- should be better
Sci: 66.3/100- can be improved further but got imprived haha(:
Lit: 27/50- didn't expect myself to get so low for this...):
His: 65/100- could be better
Geog: 48/100- screwed this up manzxzx
Art: 67/100- surprisingly!!!

I hate to say this but i totally screwed up my geog paper...damn sad although the others were ok, just because of this stupid geog my mum scolded me like some shit keep on nagging and nagging dunno why their mouth not tired wan...lol

i was totally in a bad mood cos my dad promised to bring me to Baystreet to eat dinner but in the end cos of my sis we went to the kopitiam she go and sweet-tslk to my mum lor then my mum scold me say anytime can go Baystreet then i was telling myself" then anytime can also go to kopitiam wad..."haha(: my mum show favouritism to my sis and bro lah so bad lor buy things also buy for them not say nvr buy for me lah but buy more for them obviously showing favouritism lor asshole...luckily my father very fair want to buy, everybody buy the same number of things hehe(: I love my dad! yay! that's all(:
Posted by: Neglected and loved daughter(:

omg HIM!!!

2009-10-14T17:50:00.002+08:00

let's talk abt ytd 10/10/09 omg

it was spectacular ytd after maths paper abt 10 plus, me, sihwee, nisha, ricia, yuzhen,frida and bernice were like walking to cityvibes...

when we reached mos burger, something happened....

i was damn shocked...i went in and found that he was sitting inside OMG...
i dare not look at him...he was queing up to buy food then they were like pushing me to sit nearer to him damn paiseh...then kept looking to the back cos very aekward mah then the stupid yuzhen go and say wad look at us for wad, must be because you dun wan him to see ur unglam right...wtf manxzxz

today, 11/10/09, was scince paper i practically screwed up the physics paper and you won't believe it i saw HIM again...omg
he was with his friends waliking to central and SO coincidentally, me and sihwee were also walking to central bought bubble tea and went to sihwee's hse to study and very shuang leh saw her neighbour again!!! DOUBLE HAPPINESS!!! Am i lucky or wad? haha(: posted by lucky girl(:peiiiixuan

Omg i'm damn sry...

2009-10-09T17:26:00.002+08:00

haha ppl i'm damn sry my com dunno why these few MONTHS can't log in blogger website i'm gonna kill myself manxzxz over this period of time eoy's still going on and i'm gonna mug till i die today's geog paper i practically screwed it up i'm sure i'm gonna fail and if i do means i can't go chalet and training!!! omg i'm gonna reason it out with my mother
today nth special went home after geog paper and went to imm with si hwee and went to her hse
saw her neighbour's bro omg!!!! he was going out to play bball at that time he looks s shuai manxzxz
sad thing is...'he' didn't reply my msg and calls didn't know wad he was up to i really misses 'him' and i wanna apologise if i've done anything i really am worried and sad
i can't explain love, this haha wonderful thing posted by saddy-girl:(

Omg...

2009-08-30T12:48:00.002+08:00

heyho! sry for not posting for a veryyyyyy longgggg time....cos com broke down can't go to blog website so can't post...(: ps...anw tmr's teacher's day celebrations and i hope it rains tmr in the morning...haha cos i dun really wanna go for the walk yucks it sucks lorh....crazy fellows why cnt wear fbts...sucks like hell...
blog's dead for very long time and i'm so sry abt that...luckily i use my dad's laptop to post hehehe(: smart...ytd had a friendly match with GVSS and they were great! although we lost to them but we'd sure improve a lot...dun worry NHNB C'div we were great too ytd...work hard for the carnival(:
i'm also very suay lorh...fell down then had a wound and bruises on my knee now limping like some retarded person haha(: gtg hope to post something more interesting next time(: posted: clumsy gal-joey(:

Lately...

2009-07-30T18:09:00.002+08:00

today home at abt 3 plus, watched tv then now writing and spamming lots...
now can finally use cos my bro go fight with me the com so can't post...
common tests coming soon so bo liao...bored rotting at home for even
just a few hours...wanna go training now even though have to run like mad 20rounds! sia...damn tiring...
just feel like killing myself, how stupid i was...forget it i wanna concentrate on my studies...guai kia hor...lol...i then dun wan to be the last in class...ytd was funny gl phone suddenly 'disappeared' haha kana confiscated by the Poonster the missing...all stayed behind she say wanna check on us see who take in the end nth was found...lame...today 4 ppl not here kevin,jonathan,weiren and our main star ytd guanlin hahaha so many ppl fall ill soon it will be my turn no lah touch wood...cheh today got bio test damn difficult was scratching my head when i was doing the paper wan me to die arh the paper so difficult...
actually got netball tee today but didn't pay money so can't take so sad...alright i'll stop here bye(:
posted:joey-the-funny-gal

2009-07-14T08:32:00.000+08:00

Now i'm damn bored...doing the stupid cyber wellness thingy...bye(:
Posted by me(:

AYG!!!

2009-06-26T14:26:00.002+08:00

Pardon me for saying this but, AYG is coming!!! WooHoooooooooooooo............pardon me ah i a bit siao liao....i'm just so excited abt the whole thing cos can get 2 seeeeee many many countries fighting for the championship...oh gosh....i want 2 watch the opening ceremony cos got my sch performing leh....DANCE....i hope their performance wld be a SUCCESS!!!
today had 'training' but coach not in so seniors took us...we 'trained' very hard today...my throat became hoarse from all the shouting and laughing and legs were like breaking apart from all the running and muscles 'tangled' up from all the jumping and hopping......BUT i was happy abt the training today-no complaints-although here ache there ache hehe:)
wanna wish RACHEL(my senior) a HAPPY 14th BIRTHDAY:)!!!

Carnival!!!

2009-06-23T21:57:00.008+08:00

the carnival was super DAMN cool.....i met many sch's netball teams and they were gd only for some schs.....we managed 2 go into the second round which we all couldn't believe it...

first round was quite easy fuchun, BRDW(broadwick), fmss(Fairfield Methodist), Tanglin, AISS(dunno wad sch is that) and RAFFLES that was the hardest in our group...

all won except RAFFLES tie 2:2 wow we were like OMG we didn't lose to RAFFLES...we were over the moon.....we didn't expect to win or tie with raffles...........then after that break........................................

2nd round...

Cedar Girls' sec 2!!!-LOSE-

Raffles Girls' -LOSE-

Cedar Girls' sec 1-LOSE-

Tanjong Katong-LOSE-

AISS-LOSE-

Overall-6th position...

Quite sad cause we knew couldn't beat all those schs but the cedar girls have sec2s not fair right of course lose wan lah...

AND ALSO..................

went to wq's birthday party.....quite ps cause nvr bring any presents for him lah....

Happy Birthday:)!!!

Joeeeey:)

Netball camp!!!

2009-06-10T18:51:00.008+08:00

sry long time nvr post had camp and training so very busy...i'll let the pictures do the talking...

it was ex-ex-extremely fun....had water games and many fun games...........the most fun activity was the night activity, we had flour all over our shirt and (my mum scolded me...lol) but most importantly we have bonded tgr!!!Yippee:) i think the sec ones have bonded extremely well and also the night where we slept at the open space there...it was cool i think everyone wanted to slp there again...that's all folks:) tata:)

JOey-the-funny guy...hehehehe:)

PTC conference!!!

2009-05-28T21:00:00.002+08:00

today got MUSE project again was on the 3d thingy quite funnn... played with the webcam and ppl were like filming here and there tmr's PTC conference quite excited wanna know wad AC will tell them...

i wan 2 go settler's cafe but then cnt go coz the price too high wth...then go wad mycafe dunno fun anot ltr boring like shit...

today assembly got a talk then the speaker's son was like damn cute lor then yuan ting went to took his photo then send it to all of us wow damn cute sia...

Fiendship? Relationship?

2009-05-25T21:13:00.003+08:00

halo guys, sry so long nvr post alr quite busy nowadays...
got training and workshops it's tough and frustrating...
this is the only place where i can vent my anger and let out my screams...
my siblings are driving me mad and i'm so innocent my mum just keeps scolding and scolding like everything is my fault not my siblings'
my friend once asked me this question before: is relationship more important than friendship? this question was hard 2 ans as both friends and your partner are important ppl in ur life this problem occured 2 me and i chose friendship many of u wld think that i'm stupid but i think 2 let a guy 2 spoil my friendship which lasted for years is then stupid i think i made the right choice
today after MUSE workshop went for training but only helped to pick up balls for bernice and yu zhen after that debrief then went home
hope tmr is a better day:)

Oh...today's great...

2009-05-08T18:14:00.002+08:00

Oh my gosh! Today and ytd was great! I got to see him and got close to him too.........wow fantastic manzxzxz.......but then the long holidays cnt get to see him damn sianzxzx he's being carved in my mind i can't forget him today his friends came and asked if i liked him but i dunno wad to say then i just walked away...
Ytd bus-ed hme and walked to the bus-stop and then saw him and zhen yang they were waiting for the bus and i walked towards the bus-stop then he and zhen yang were all the while standing outside the bus-stop but then when i came into the bus-stop he told zhenyang to move inside i was like "was it bcoz of me???" i was hoping that it was the case
then he actually was not beside me actually was zhenyang then he suddenly changed place with zhenyang and stood close beside me!!! that feeling was like damn shuang de lor.....OMG!!! then their bus came and they boarded the bus then as he board he turned back and looked at me manzxzxzx OMG!!! I was like, my heart melted manzxzxzx i was over the moon!!!

I hate that BITCH!!!

2009-04-30T16:22:00.002+08:00

OH GOSH! i hate that f***ing BITCH she's terrible....awwww make my friend until so sad tell her go DIE lah...
Finish ranting at that stupid bitch...woa today damn scary got 3 tests first the physics quite easy then the History damn difficult then the Bio quite ok lah other classes say damn difficult hai wo ytd study like siao...
e.lit was fun today coz of Shan you's nonsensical nonsense hahah but he also quite funny...that Jun wen like siao alr kana bullied by ppl still laugh stupid lah that fellow...assembly had a boring talk on cyber wellness and Pornography which the guys are interested in...pervetic sia...nth else to do now slacking like siao neck very pain dunno whether is sprained or just ache haizzzz boring gna slp long holiday coming haha no eng i dun like eng haha i think my classmates also dun like
Those ppl like Darren and Jonathan are damn irritating so wad if i present it doesn't concern him kays and i was damn pissed off by u guys nth better to do huh...wu liao gna spend my holidays at hme again STUDYING!!!Arghhhhhhh

Photos:)

2009-04-17T20:55:00.001+08:00

Haha me, wenxin, yuqi and Annabel! took this nice rite???:)

Sports Day:)

2009-04-17T20:42:00.002+08:00

Today was the Nanhua's Sports day! 1st time taking part in such a big event in nanhua, it was fun, fun, fun!!! Had lessons 2day until 11.30 and then went 2 change cls tee with wenxin, yu qi, hui ping and many more... Then went 2 Cityvibe 2 eat lunch...

Could not find seats at fast food then went to eat at restaurants damn ex wan lor... ate hot and spicy tomyam noodles shiok!!!:) then went 2 foot the bill and saw the amt OMG!!!

Damn ex wan lor...$90 bucks seh...haha dunno wad we eat until so ex... then went 2 clementi stadium with gals and guys and went 2 sit at our cls there...saw a lot of ppl there alr then started the 1st event bernice ran but not quite well then guan lin ran not too bad but didn't get top three but it's ok:) 4x100 boys went didn't win coz of somebody...4x400 also didn't win becoz of the same person if not can win wan lor...

then 8x50 won! got 2nd place!!! not bad after all... yup took some photos haha yay 106 rocks!!!

Class Outing

2009-04-09T18:00:00.002+08:00

It will be so FUN........
My first outing with my sec sch friends hope it'll be fun fun and fun.............
today was e-learning day stayed at home did nth but went onto the net, surf and spam and slp at the same time li hai hor....lol haha lunch time went 2 look 4 my mum 2 have lunch with her after that came hme now very angry with my siblings **** lah walao eh hen bu de ask them go die anw dun sao my xin qing for tmr tata

2009-04-08T16:49:00.002+08:00

Hi guys finally posting again...sry arh long time nvr post too busy lah...This fri got cls outing it's gonna be fun...
very tired because now i'm in netball...Yipee the sports that i long for it's my everything although very tired but it's my passion i'll persevere hahahaha
sian lah hate some stupid bitch in my class so arrogant but angry will make miie age faster then dun wan bother with them waste my energy...i hate the girl ....na she very qian bian...dun tok abt her it makes my blood boil...
i so much wan 2 make some ppl change their opinions abt me, not to hate me anymore and dun find me a nuisance and will not hate to talk to me...damn sad now hope that they will treat me better

i still thinks of him...

love, romance is wad i seek

2009-03-28T18:44:00.001+08:00

Myspace Layouts

SPORTS HEATS ALERTTTTTT!!!

2009-03-24T21:16:00.002+08:00

Sports heat's just tmr!!!! Scared that i'll not be able 2 slp well tonight so excited over the heats!!! This is the first time taking part in Nanhua's sports event..........Damn scary but i think will be extremely fun........
I can't wait for tmr 2 arrive, time passes so slowly........like a tortoise...........I WAN TMR 2 ARRIVE NOW!!!Haha a bit over huh.......tmr Mr Chan is going to change the seating arrangement again, dun wan 2 sit with the boys......but i very suay wan leh ltr i draw lots then draw until a boy then dieeeeeeeee...............
Anw now doing the boring SRP article gtg:D

New hairstyle! Yay holidays are over!!!

2009-03-23T18:35:00.003+08:00

Yippee holidays are finally over damn sian during the holidays coz can't be with 106.....so sad....But now it's the start of the new term!!! I REALLY HOPE 2 DO WELL IN COMMON TEAT 2... I really dun wan 2 fail any subjects again...
Mr Chan will be changing seats again, i really dun wan 2 sit with the boys again but he said that one of the girls will be sitting with one of the boys like Yuan ting and Guan lin hahaha...hope it's not me.....
today my dad fetch me from sch to hme 2 get my report card(didn't bring...)then send me back 2 sch 2 give it 2 Mr Chan(dread....)so sian...after that came hme watch tv and that's all hope 2 be approved for the appeal of getting into the netball team...tata:D

Today's sian wan lor........

2009-03-20T17:01:00.000+08:00

today nth happen, met up with my pri sch friend, agnes and maxine....Agnes is currently studying in BPGHs and Maxine is studying in RVHs. both clever students huh......met them at macdonalds then went 2 buy my other friend's birthday present Si tong...today's her birthday HAPPY BIRTHDAY! another year older wish her wishes come true.....

Myself:)

2009-03-19T22:28:00.000+08:00

Abt me, i loveeeee making friends and also having bffs!!! Those are my professions. My job is to let the ppl arnd me happy, feel important and also living in comfort. Be my friend and i'm sure that ur everyday life will be as happy as me btw my name is Joey. Nice 2 meet u guys! i'm currently studying in Nanhua High it's a super gd sch!:D

Being optimistic is my profession

2009-03-19T19:38:00.000+08:00

Being optimistic is always wad i do, comfort ppl, encourage ppl and sometimes give them joy that's my occupation wan 2 know me better tag me:)

He fills up my heart...

I'm back!

Decision

10th ANNIVERSARY!

100th post

New beginning

This sucks

A wrong start

Never ending

Let down.

失恋

Admit it?

Terrible..

Christmas! 2010!

Time flies..

Me, myself..?

Jonghyun

206

No boundaries

Regrets...

Friends

Common tests!

Confession

I realised that you were still as important to me

Beside me, or away from me?

Visitation!

HAHAHAHA:D

Fun ttm!!!!!

Amazing song!

Take a look at me, just this once

It's over, i know it is.

Why go to the extremes?

What is my altar???

First Discipleship Class!

Sometimes things just can't be salvaged

Why him? Of all people...

Today's service!

God, you filled up my heart

It makes sense

终于说出口

Please let it be true

My heart will always beat for you

Heartening yet touching

Back from Church camp

Time to let go

It's meaningless

never to believe you again...

It's not the end, but a new beginning

Just this once

I'm back!

My 50th post

More problems faced

YIPPEE

We will never give up

why can't adults understand us?

It's okay it's alright

This was wad we've been training for

The One(:

DETERMINATION

Homework VS Competition

My BIRTHDAY!!!

SUPER JUNIOR M & JJ LIN(:

CARNIVAL AT SCGS!!!(:

Trip to Hong Kong

Training was tiring...

Cry, cry and more crying...

I felt so useless...

Train hard!!!

Random Stuffs<3

Class Chalet!

Counting down...

Once upon a time...

Bro's birthday!!!

Exam Results!!!

omg HIM!!!

Omg i'm damn sry...

Omg...

Lately...

AYG!!!

Carnival!!!